If you were to tea with me today it would be an early one, around that beautiful time of the morning when the world just seems to be coming to life. The light is soft. Bird song loud. There is a gentle hum of morning radio in the background. The school bus passes the end of our lane, I can hardly believe it’s that time of year again.
Please come in, let me take your jacket. Yes that is fresh coffee you smell brewing, today it is being served with a generous slice of fresh banana bread, would you like it warmed a little?
Susanna is pottering around the playroom, making breakfast for her babies, lost in a game of make believe. Let’s perch ourselves at the breakfast bar. There is nothing quite like that morning sun spilling into the kitchen.
It’s the very last day of August, can you believe it? There is something very Autumnal in the air this morning and I have to tell you, it gives me an extra bounce in my step. What is it about the start of a brand new term that makes it feel like a new beginning? As though it’s another little ‘new year’ when possibilities are endless, excitement is bubbling and routines are being set. The geek in me absolutely adores September, but oh there is so much to catch up on before it arrives.
My baby starts nursery next week. No doubt this autumn is bringing some change in your home too? How do you feel about it? I am a little torn myself. She is excited. I am excited for her. And yet, I am sad and more than a bit nervous too. For the first time in her little life she will be in the care of someone other than family for longer than the usual hour she spends (and adores) in kids church.
There will be rules.
There will be sharing and learning and no doubt, there will be some tough moments for her to navigate.
She is my baby though, I hope someone scoops her into a cuddle if she gets a bit tearful, I am sure they will. We have chosen a beautiful country nursery which just oozed happiness and contentment when we visited a few weeks ago. I know she will be happy there but it may take this mama some time to get used to it. I am soppy, I know.
Speaking of my baby, she is becoming a big sister, have you heard? Our next little bundle is due in March 2019 and we are overjoyed. I am a planner and so yes, this one was very much planned, prayed and hoped for, just like their big sister. Just a few weeks ago we got to see our wriggly little baby and at last share our news. There is no doubt; this little one has brought so much joy already. Susanna is delighted. Each morning starts with “good morning baby” and more than a few times each day she asks questions and makes plans for when baby is here. If there was ever a girl who was born to be a big sister it is Susanna Grace!
How did you spend your summer? Has it gone by in a flash for you too?
I lost all of July and a large part of August to morning (all day) sickness, exhaustion and just general early pregnancy funk. It’s not the most fun time, there is no way to deny that, but I am starting to feel like a human again, most of the time anyway.
Life has been a mixed bag for us this summer. We were elated to find out about baby in June but that was quickly followed by a horrendously challenging time for my wider family. I like to see the positives in difficult situations so I have chosen to focus on these truths in the midst of a lot of heartache and uncertainty;
God is good, all the time. We have been covered in prayer over the past couple of months and I have seen God moving in the chaos. I trust that His plans are still to prosper and feel secure in the truth that He will turn it all for our good.
My family is strong and quite literally unbreakable. In the midst of heartache, everyone pulled together, covered our hurting family member and did everything within our power to help them through. We have laughed and cried together and spend serious quality time as a family unit. I will never take my incredible tribe for granted.
Last but not least, I know for sure that everything will be alright in the end, and if it’s not alright, it’s not the end.
There is no doubt that we are in a ‘new normal’ as a family and it’s going to be odd for a while. I am not great with change. Some days are overwhelming. Some days are filled with hope. I am just trying to keep my eyes fixed on the one who remains steady even in the greatest storm. I have an anchor.
You’ll listen so graciously, tell me you understand, offer pearls of wisdom, perhaps even share your own experience. You are as always, a breath of fresh air. A new perspective. A kind heart. It is incredible how quickly tea with you can soothe my soul.
How do you deal with change? For some it is exciting, for others it is scary. I think I fall somewhere in the middle. What is on your heart?
As we finish off our coffees and are left with just a few crumbs on plates, the little ones appear round our feet and it looks like catch up time is over. A quick hug goodbye and a wave at the door, we promise to meet sooner rather than later.
Thank you for joining me, see you soon.