To our beautiful little girl Susanna,
How is it that you are two? This year has gone by in the blink of an eye, in fact, the past two years have just gone by in a flash. The funny thing is that your first year was quick, but with feeding, colic, sleep deprivation, self-doubt and motherhood guilt, some days did feel long. I used to hear that the days are long but the years are short and I clung on to that truth in the days that felt long and sometimes lonely. Now two years into your wonderful little life I realise just how true that saying is. The years are so short!
Those feelings that swept over me when they first handed me my beautiful, beady eyed little bundle, are still so fresh. I feel them almost every time I look at you. Overwhelmed, thankful and so in love. You came into the world at 4.15am on Sunday 11th October 2015 in the midst of the most beautiful Autumn I can ever remember, and that is the moment that everything changed, everything! My whole being was consumed with protecting you and making sure that your Daddy & I give you the best life that we possibly could. All of our prayers had been answered; we were holding a beautiful, healthy baby girl and she was ours. What did we ever do to deserve a daughter like you? That’s Gods grace I guess, and that’s where your middle name came from.
Your personality is shining through stronger than ever. I see so much of myself in you, not just your looks but your personality too. Genetics are seriously amazing though because as much as I see me, I also see your Daddy and my goodness that just fills me with pride. He is an incredible man and I am so grateful that you have inherited so much of his character. We laugh daily about how you are so neat and tidy (like Daddy), obsessed with babies (that would be from Mummy) and how you just see the joy in everything (I guess that’s a mixture of your Dad’s sense of adventure and your mamas sunny disposition). That’s not to say you don’t have the typical toddler moments, you are fairly stubborn and fiercely independent and if someone dares to deprive you of ice cream, well, approach with caution, that’s all I’ll say.
You are learning to share and it’s a tough old gig. Sometimes you just need reminded that we take turns and other times it is just as if your whole world has been shattered, but even in those moments your kindness shines through. As soon as you understand that somebody else wants to have a go with whatever toy is being battled over you dry your tears and move on, always wanting to make sure the other kid isn’t sad. It melts my heart.
Over the past year you have changed in so many ways. You have grown by 18cms, you are tall for your age. You have beautiful red hair and at last we can do things with it. Your favourite hairstyle at the moment is two pigtails and a hairband like your friend “Fee”. You have lost a lot of your baby face but the cheeks remain, oh I love those cheeks! You are the sweetest, kindest little girl. You adore your family, especially your grandparents. Your Aunties & Uncles adore you too and you love them so much, it shocks me how such a little person has so much love to give. You are especially fond of your cousin Isabelle and you really look up to her; you love all your cousins though and get so excited to see them. Nothing melts my heart more than seeing you with your wee friends. You talk about Marley and “Fee” daily and cannot contain your excitement when I tell you a play date is coming up. You are so full of compassion, I didn’t realise that someone so young could be so caring.
I can imagine you being a vet when you are older, you are obsessed with animals, or maybe a Teacher, little miss organised. I think though, that your biggest dream will be to become a mummy. I am so excited to see where this life takes you but I so badly want time to slow down. I am cherishing these days where a quick cuddle makes everything better, your innocence is so intact and the worst thing that could happen is that we run out of treats in the snack cupboard. Bed time is so precious. You still fall asleep in our arms and I often sit way longer than necessary just kissing your face and soaking up the little girl who is still just my baby. You love us so much and we love you more than you will ever know. To the moon and back, isn’t that what we say?!
You are our greatest blessing, a precious gift from God and we thank Him every day for you. I pray that you grow up strong in your Faith, in knowing who and whose you are. Hold on to kindness, compassion and love.
“For I know the plans I have for you, declares the Lord, plans to prosper you and not to harm you, plans to give you hope and a future” Jeremiah 29:11
We love you so much,
Mummy & Daddy